How exciting!

Today is my last Monday here at Campbell A. Griffin Treatment Center! Yeah to that one. There will not be a sad goodbye. When I left my last job at The Breakers up in New Jersey, I knew that I was never going to find a job like that again. I can honestly say that I loved working there and I would go back in a heart beat if Josh and I lived up there. I don't think that is going to happen though, but if it ever did that is the first place I would go. They treated me like family there and they still treat my family like family there. They are awesome people. Cosmo Scardino is the owner. If you want to ever stay at a really nice hotel on the Jersey Shore this is the place to stay. www.breakershotel.com I miss it a lot sometimes. When I worked there in the summer as day time manager of the restaurant, I would have to be there at 7:30am and my favorite cook Shayla would always make me breakfast. Then I would take it to the Veranda and eat it while I watched the ocean waves crash and dolphins sometimes would jump out of the water. It was an awesome view and great way to start the day. I had such a great time working there and I loved everyone that I worked with.

But as for my job here...I will not miss a moment of it! I didn't like my supervisor. She thought of me more as a personal assistant than what my correct job title was and I didn't get paid enough to put up with her crap. She wasn't my first supervisor here. My first supervisor was really nice and I liked working with her but this next one was awful! I hated feeling like I was being taken advantage of. Thank goodness that I don't have to work with her anymore. That in itself is a blessing. My job reminded me a lot like the movie Office Space. Josh had told me that I needed to watch it one day when I had done a bunch of complaining about my job. That more described a lot of what my job was like.

All in all, I can now look at this situation and just praise God for getting me out of it even though when it first happened I didn't know what to think. I actually feel blessed to know that I don't have to come back to this place again. I can't wait to start working with my little kids. I remember working at the day care in Waxahachie and I loved all those little kids there. I am excited about my new job and I can't wait to start. This week I only have to work 4 days. I will be getting off on Thursday.
Thursday after work I am going to drive to Houston. Then Friday I am going to work with Danielle at the hospital. I am really excited about that. I can walk by the nursery and see all the little babies too. Saturday is Caleb's baby shower!!! Yeah, I can't wait to see everyone. I can't wait to get gifts too but more so I am just really excited about seeing everyone. Danielle said that she a couple of other ladies have been working to get this shower looking awesome.

Okay, well I won't be writing and emailing as often during the day as I can now and before but I will update at night. Talk to y'all soon again!

Things to do...

Well, tonight I am having a girls night with all the teen girls from youth. We are not going to have it at my house though because it is just too small for all the girls. It should be fun though. Josh left last night to go hunting again up in Fredricksburg. That boy loves hunting. He won't be back until Saturday sometime, probably in the evening knowing him. Then next weekend is one of the baby showers!!! I can't wait to see all the people from Greens Bayou. It will be tons of fun and all of Josh's family will be there too. So excited! I wish my family could be there. They are planning something for after the baby is born so that way I can bring him up there and instead of them just seeing my stomach they can actually see him. That will be fun too.

I am excited that it is Friday! I need to go start some more work. I will try and post around lunch today.

PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so excited. My end date for this job is November 4th and my beginning date for my next job is November 7th. I will not miss a pay check! Also, when the baby comes I will be able to take the baby to work with me. I am so thankful. I do appreciate all the prayer and support from all you girls out there. It has meant a lot to me. Even in my most down moments all of y'all were there to pick my spirits back up again.

Josh has been amazing too. The whole time I was lacking in my faith, he was there to encourage me. He kept pushing me the whole time and kept telling me to have faith and know that God was not going to let us suffer. He wouldn't give us more than what we couldn't handle.

Thank you again for all the prayers!!! I will let you know how my first day goes. Oh yah, I am going to be a teacher for 2 year olds. I am super excited!

Long and relaxing weekend!

This weekend was very relaxing and a lot of fun. Just what I needed. Josh had a bike-a-thon that was put on by South Texas District to raise money for Speed the Light. Josh and Pastor Doug split a 66 mile bike run between the two of them and raise over 3000 dollars. Thursday, Pastor Doug, sister Janet, Josh and myself drove to Galveston and got in around 3:00pm. We checked into the Hotel (Hilton) and while Pastor Doug was checking in the guy asked him if he wanted to upgrade the rooms for no extra charge! He said of course! So, we had a room with a king size bed, feather pillow top matress, couch and lounge area, and a large bathroom. What a blessing that was. Josh and I didn't have to pay for any of it. So, Josh and Pastor Doug started their biking that first day and I went up and laid on the bed and relaxed and watched TV. Then we all met up for dinner. The district had a dinner planned for us. We got to sit with Josh's parents and his brother and his brother's wife. That was nice to see them again. Danielle is funny. She doesn't say hi to me any more right away, she goes right for that belly and starts talking to Caleb. It's cute. After dinner we went back to the room and his family came up and hung out for awhile. We were laying on the bed and watching Caleb move around in there. He sure likes to show off now. Michael and Melissa gave us some cute baby hunting gear. I will have to post some pics of them. The next day Josh woke up pretty early to go finish the bike ride with Pastor Doug and then we all met up for lunch again. We went and ate a Fuddruckers! Yummy. After that we went and saw a movie. Elizabethtown. Stupid movie! I fell asleep and everyone else that stayed awake said it was dumb. I suggest not going and seeing it. After that we went back to the hotel room and hung around some more, then we went down to the little banquet dinner that they had to wrap up the weekend. Josh's family left after that and we went back up to the hotel room. We decided we wanted starbucks and left to go see if any one else wanted starbucks in Brother Marty's room. Another couple went with us to go get starbucks. We went back to Brother Marty's room and hung out for a little bit with all the other youth pastors and their wives and then went up to our room.

All in all, I had a very nice weekend with little worries. My job tried to call me while I was out of town but I didn't worry about that. What are they gonna do fire me?! I put in for the time so they need to learn not to bother anyone. I have a life! Sorry about that, I was a little ticked off when they called.

Baby Caleb is moving around and around! He loves to kick his daddy in the face too when Josh puts his head on my belly to talk to him. It's pretty funny.

I have this week and next week and then Friday the 4th is my last day! I am pretty excited that I don't have to work here anymore. I really didn't enjoy the people that I worked with and I didn't really enjoy my job, I was just doing it for the little money I made. Just to pay the bills. I am praying that God has something out there. I have another interview for another day care today after my job so pray that that goes well. Talk to y'all soon again!

Oh and my friend Jessica maybe having her baby today! Not sure yet. I haven't heard any word but I am super excited for her. She is having a boy, so our boys can be friends. I am praying for you Jecy!!! Come on Baby Elliot show some progress!

PICTURES!!!

Okay here are some recent updates on how I am growing. The green shirt is when I was 22 weeks and the bare belly ones are taken this morning and I am 23 weeks and 4 days. My how I have grown! He likes to move and wiggle around a lot in there. My tummy is a jungle gym to him I guess. It feels funny so far although I have heard that some of the kicks can be pretty painful.
That is my new Dooney and Bourke baby diaper bag! Isn't so cute?! My mom got that for me. I was wanting this one from Coach but then they discontinued it and I saw this one and just fell in love with everything about it. It has a little picture holder on the side that I can put his picture in, and green is my favorite color! It worked out perfect.
Then Caleb has some cool shoes too. The Timberland boots are from my mom, the converse are from Josh's mom, and the UGGS are from my Aunt Linda. They are the cutest in the world. He is gonna be one stylish little boy! I can't wait to see what he looks like in them.
Well, I promised y'all pics and here they are! Sorry it took so long.

Here is a picture of Baby Carson Yocum and Josh. We went to go see Cary, Melissa, and Carson before they left for Colorado. Melissa he is such a doll!

Sidney has become a woman!

My little Sidney has become a woman! To my surprise this morning, I woke up with seeing little red spots. Yea, it might be gross but she couldn't help it. Poor baby doesn't know what is going on with her body. Anyways, I got my resolve and cleaned it right up. That stuff does wonders! Every bit of it came out. So, now today before I drive down to Houston, I have to go pick up some doggy diapers! Our other dog, Bailey, is fixed, but we decided that we were going to try and have puppies with Sidney. We'll see. Well, that is is so far today. I will try and update again. Hope y'all have a good weekend.

Everything is Moving

Josh and had our monthly doctor visit yesterday to check on baby Caleb. He was doing fine! She took a few more measurements and said that his thigh bone (forget the medical term for it) was long. His head looked big too. Actually, a lot of things looked a lot bigger. She found his digit too and said "Yup, it's still a boy". Very cute. She checked out my placenta and said that it has repositioned itself and is moving up fine. She still marked me down as placenta previa, but she said that things can return back to normal. I thought that was an answered prayer. I didn't want to have complications. I have been experiencing a lot of cramping but I think that is just do to nerves and stress. I saw his little face too. He looked like he had a pug nose like mine! So cute! I can't wait to meet him in person. I have 17 more weeks! I also found out from my doctor that she is 3 weeks behind me pregnant with her second boy! I thought that was neat. Although she may be delivering me when she is huge or someone else will be delivering. Either way I am very happy for her. She is the sweetest dr. I need to promise that I will post pictures of our ultrasound! Our computer at home has been acting funny so I will try tonight after youth. I promise. My mom has been wanting to see them. Sorry Mom.
Well, onto the next move...A lady in our church is leaving for Afghanistan in April of 2006 and has asked Josh if he and I wanted to live in her house "RENT FREE" for one year! Crazy huh? It is a 2-story house and it is only like 5 minutes from our house now. All we would have to do is pay for the utilities and watch her dog for her. Of course that doesn't matter because we love dogs and have 2 of our own. So, I think we may take the offer. We would be saving almost 9,000 dollars and be able to get out of the debt that we have got since we have been married. I was a little reluctant about it at first because the first thing I thought about was the baby's nursery and how cute we had decorated it and then I thought about having to change all of my addresses. But now that I have been thinking about it more, it would be stupid not to take this opportunity. So that is the news. I guess I should start packing a little bit now with the clothes that I don't wear (pre-maternity) because I am sure that I won't be wearing them in April yet either. Gosh, I hate moving. I know that we were not going to live in this home forever but just the thought of having to move makes me feel exhausted. I am going to get back to work now. Yeah for it being Wednesday! Only 2 more days for the weekend. We are going to Houston for Lacey's birthday. That should be fun.

Shower!

Hey Girls

My mother-in-law is giving me a baby shower in Houston and said that I could invite y'all. If you are wanting to go email me your address so we can send y'all an invite. It will be November 5th. Not sure about the time, but it will be at Josh's dad's church. Greens Bayou Assembly of God. Let me know. My email is aliciaallard@yahoo.com. I totally understand if you can't make it either.

Jecy, I'm sorry again that I couldn't be there for baby Elliot's shower. I will be excited to see him at mine though! Jenny, I don't need your address cause your Aunt will probably get it from your mom or maybe she will just invite y'all all together from the same invitation. I don't know, but don't worry. Okay, talk to y'all later and have a good weekend.

Thanks again for all of your encouraging words.

Oh Yeah, CONGRADULATIONS LINSDEY ON YOUR NEW BABY GIRL!!!

Why I haven't blogged

It has been very hard lately having to deal with this mess. People keep telling me, it's okay God has something out there for you, but to be honest it has been so hard having to trust in Him. I know that I should know better and that God does really have something out there for me, but it is so scary what has taken place. I would have never imagined myself in this position. I guess that is why God has me here for the moment. Because I would have never had to rely on Him completely. It is one thing if it was only Josh and I, but because we are bringing another little one into this, I want to be able to give this baby everthing he needs to live and be happy. Josh has been handling my situation pretty good for the most part. He has had to be strong for both of us when I have been weak. Yes, I have been weak. I have done plenty of crying. I don't think I have cried this much in a long time. While all my emotions have been stirring, I think that little Caleb knows that I am going through something because he has been moving quite often. It makes me smile when I look down and see and feel that he is in there kicking and squirming. I just hope it doesn't upset him either. Every day gets a little easier to accept this but every day it gets closer to the closing date of my job and I don't have another one lined up yet. Who would want to hire a 5 1/2 months pregnant woman? I just don't know. I have sent out about 10 resumes. I had an interview yesterday with one of them. I guess it went okay, but the whole time I was nervous that they were going to ask if I was pregnant. I'm sure if I went to a grocery store or Walmart I could get a job, but I need something with benefits and something that is going to be flexible with Josh's job and the church. I know now exactly how some people in this world feel. Josh and I were laying on our bed last night just talking and I started to get teary eyed again and told him that I loved our bed. He looked at me with a funny face. I said that I would have never appreciated the things that we have as much as I do now. Our bed is really comfortable. Anyways, I look around and now I thank God for what we have. I am not looking around and wishing I had more. Although, don't get me wrong, I am a girl and would love so much more, but I understand the circumstances. Well, I guess I could go on and on about this subject but there is no sense of sulking over it. I just need to have faith and trust that God will take care of us (all 3 of us).

On a better note, Josh finally felt the baby kick. I have been telling him for a couple of weeks now that I have been feeling the baby, but he couldn't feel him. We were laying in bed the other night watching a movie (scary) and I guess the baby could hear or maybe he was trying to get comfortable, but all of sudden he just started throwing himself around in there. I told Josh to give me his hand. Josh didn't know at first what he was feeling for but then finally he looked over at me and said was that one? I was like yeah! You felt it? He had a big smile on his face and then started calling his name. Caleb, Caleb, Caleb? It was really cute. That always brings a smile out. Well, I am still here at work, so I do need to get back to it, but I will try to bring myself to update again more often. I hope all is well out there with all of you.