Pieces of my heart ♥️
(I have not wanted to be vulnerable in awhile mainly because I’ve wrestled with thoughts in my head from hurt but here it is)
I have such an urgency in my heart to throw away, get rid of, pitch almost everything these days. Nesting stage. I just want to fly. I just want the weight of “things” to be lifted so when it’s time for us to leave that we can just run to the finish line. Our finish line in this very moment (because we all know things change, goals changes, moments change, etc) is to be fully funded so we can head out to New Zealand. It feels like the longest pregnancy ever in my life. Lol. 😂😵💫😣😬🤦🏼♀️🎉 All the emotions. I’d like to use the analogy of running a marathon verses a sprint but honestly I can’t say I know what that feels like. I did track 1 year in high school and I thought “this is for the birds!” I enjoyed cheering more than running around a circle on a track. Ha. Just me though. High five to all the runners out there. I’ll be your cheerleader for now.
What I can relate to is pregnancy. 😉 I loved moments of the pregnancies. Not everything about it though that’s for sure. I loved the announcements. I loved to be able to share with the world that we were going to receive a blessing in our life. I loved the middle of the pregnancy. I loved when I could actually look “cute” for a bit and show a round belly. The beginning part of the pregnancy I always just felt sick and bloated so when I finally got to a cuter stage I was like “oh yeah!” Then the end. 😣🙄 It felt like FOREVER til the due date or anywhere near it. On every pregnancy it felt like forever!
So how am I relating this to our journey now you ask? Lol. I was getting there.
Announcing it was fun! After the announcement Covid. So not fun for anyone. Then the middle to end. We are more around the 7 month prenatal stage right now. We can feel the Braxton Hicks. We can feel our surroundings more and more getting ready to labor. We feel good but it’s starting to feel like we are ready to prepare for the baby. Prepare for the departure. Prepare for the blessing. Prepare for the work in New Zealand. Because just like pregnancy it’s not over when you have that baby. It’s only just beginning.
We are so thankful for our support team. YOU! (And we need more of you too! 😉) There have been some dark and lonely days but we feel that God is allowing us to walk in these moments so that when we get to our field we will crave the urgency for yet another pregnancy. (Not a physical one!) For a community. For the hearts of New Zealand to hear the name of Jesus and not just dismiss Him. For relationships to be made. For a place the community can come and live life together without judgment or surface level friendships. For a place they can dive in deep to His love. For a place to feel accepted. For a place to walk with Jesus. For a place to truly know the word of God. For a place where all is loved.
Love and blessings to all,
Alicia Joy
“Beyond the beauty; Into the community”
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